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The Preacher
and the Hooker
Chapter XXV
Answered Prayer
I mentioned on the first page of this book that I was praying, I did not mention
that I was fasting and near the end of a twenty-one day fast. I began to read and study the Book of Hosea
on the 15th day of the fast. I started the study on December 30, Monday 1996. As I finish
my writing today it is January 31, 1997. I mentioned one of my prayer requests that was on my prayer card.
As I finish my closing I would like to share some of the requests that God has answered. When I
began my fast I was praying and asking, what is God’s will in reconciliation? Is it alright to pray
for reconciliation? Open doors that I might share my testimony. Open doors to minister,
give me the anointing to write. Anointing on a piece of literature God gave me for healing of those who
are hurting, greater insight into the fear of God to hate sin. Places to preach. Find
a publisher, a job or work. And the intense burden and prayer for the healing of a broken heart that I
caused. On January 2 between 3:00 p.m. and 3:05 p.m., I mention this time that it might
be documented, for I do not know as of yet exactly what took place at that time. I just know that is when
I received the release that everything was taken care of. I walked off my mother’s porch to hand
her something as she was about to leave. I began to weep. I had been going daily to
6th Street in my hometown and praying at a bench at the beach and praying at home and while traveling. This
time when I went to pray I could not. I felt that the prayers had been heard and answered.
I thanked God for the answers. Since the 2nd of January until now I have needed to write down daily
the things God is doing, the answers He has given and the daily blessings and healings and reconciliations He has brought
with many already. When God gave me Hosea to study as the 5th step in a 12 Step recovery study, God answered
how to pray and the will of God in reconciliation. In Hosea I found the answer to why a separation needs
to be. I found the problem with finances and God has just given me a full time job with moving into a field
manager position shortly that starts February 3rd. God has opened doors to share my testimony before crowds
and to individuals daily. I have had the opportunity to preach or teach on Jeremiah and Hosea.
The literature of my testimony is being used within weeks of publishing into several states now and is continuing to
multiply and reach people I have never met and do not know. God has opened the doors to teach a 12 Step
program of recovery from co-dependency and addictions. And I have found a publisher who is publishing a
work I am putting together presently to minister to hurting teenagers, that is so far-reaching I can not comprehend it.
I praise God for answered prayers.
I have learned that God’s will is to reconcile you and me to Him. I have learned you must
admit you have done wrong to reconcile to God. I have learned in order for reconciliation to happen with
a mate that you have hurt you will have to realize it will take time, God’s love and much prayer to bring it about.
God wanted Hosea and Gomer back together to show His will for his people. God wanted them back together
to show the world how He forgives. God wanted them back together to show how His grace works.
God wanted them back together to show how His forgiveness works. God wanted them back together to
show how His mercy is tender and loving. God wanted them back together to show the world that when He heals
( I will cure you. ) it is complete. It is perfectly clear of what God’s will is as one reads Hosea.
So read it, study it, tear it apart, devour it, pray, allow God to speak to your heart then listen to your heart.
God wanted reconciliation of Hosea and Gomer to show the world It’s possible.
Can the Angels win the pennant? Not in 1997. But with God’s help, God’s
forgiveness, a willingness to look at ourselves, a willingness to admit and search ourselves and forgive as God forgives,
there is hope- It’s possible.
God alone will know just how many souls and relationships have been healed or encouraged by watching
God’s love demonstrated through our lives. God’s will is to be reconciled to His people.
I pray that my life will be a witness to His love and forgiveness through whatever means He chooses to use me.
This is why I am personally praying for reconciliation with my wife. I am also praying that I will
have the opportunity to commit to a hesed love and commit to be the champion I am supposed to be. If reconciliation
does not happen it is in God’s hands. God will give me grace. I still have a fantastic
future. Amen.
May God Bless you
by showing His love through you
James 5:16
Sunday, February 2, 1997
Came outside to pray this morning. Sat and prayed of the finishing,
final touch on my book. Working on the book has been a real eye opener, a harsh but loving confrontation
with God and myself.
I prayed, okay, God, I need a full-time job and I sure would like to have a woman who loves me. I
realized that after the cabinet company did not hire me, I still have a job to go to tomorrow or Tuesday putting on siding
and I had two women who loved me. Then I thought how the marriages
had been broken to pieces and smashed just like a clay vessel like I have been asked to be. I am very sorry
that I caused such pain by smashing two marriages to pieces. Please forgive me Julie and My Lady.
I am sorry. It was me. How could you have done otherwise but to leave?
A marriage would have to be made out of the dust and reformed into a new vessel just like God has done with me.
There’s nothing left but dust. New prayer right now I add to my last thought.
Father I am willing. Take me you servant, and put together a new vessel that is one, of honor unto
thee. A vessel that as we become one can be a witness to your name.
Ephesians 2:15b-16, Then he took the two groups that had been
opposed to each other and made them parts of Himself; thus he fused us together to become one new person, and at last there
was peace. As part of the same body, our anger against each other has disappeared, for both of us have
been reconciled to God. And so the feud ended at last at the cross. Reconciliation
can only take place at the cross where we need to receive the mind of Christ.
Only God could do it with servants willing to reconcile to Him. I
pray Father let your will be done. Reconciliation can only take place at the cross where we need to receive
the mind of Christ into my life, my wife’s life and to whomever you minister to through this book.
Amen.
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